Saturday, August 14, 2010

inception lah sangat.

Mulai hari ni, aku nak cuba catat mimpi2 yang aku lalui.
Satu, sebab mimpi memang mudah nak lupa.
Dua, sebab ada research mengatakan jika kita ingat mimpi yang sebelum2, kita dapat control mimpi yang kita sedang hadapi tu.
Memanglah bukan realiti, tapi cool ape kalau dapat control mimpi.

So aku baru bangun je tido ni, and aku terbangun awal disebabkan oleh mimpi. sebab tu aku capai laptop nak catat ape yang aku mimpi. if not, sure lupa.

Just now ape yang aku ingat ade 2 scene.

Scene pertama aku dalam bus on the way to somewhere. dalam bus to semua orang asing except aku la. suddenly, semua da kat luar bus, time tu kat highway. So banyak la kenderaan semua and jalan lurus je. but on that time kenderaan semua stop and orang2 kat luar. the thing is, kat luar ade phenomena tgh berlaku, which is ribut taufan/puting beliung. so maybe that's why semua orang keluar kereta masing2. on that time, puting beliung tu still jauh but later on, it got bigger and suddenly it was on our way. everyone started to get panic and all of em ran towards the opposite side of the coming tornado, including me. So when I ran, I know that i was getting slower while the tornado maintained its speed. you can imagine what happened next. i was in the tornado, berpusing-pusing semua and i was only thinking about mati and on my mouth, i said dua kalimah shahadah continuously. later, i heard people talking and while i thought i was already dead, actually i was still alive. i woke up with sore all over my body, but realizing that i'm still not dead. i was on a back of a truck. i think it was like a truck with loads of food stalls on its back. so the truck started to move and while on its way, i saw the bus that i took before, everyone was still there despite the killing tornado. a funny thing that i heard was, "Hey, it was awesome!" dalam kepale aku berkata, "Gile ape budak ni?awesome pulak die ckp. org bagai nak mati kene tiup die ckp awesome". and it ended just like that.

then, in the same dream, suddenly i was at a new scene. this time i was at my aunt's house. i think i just got back from somewhere far coz everyone was kinda nice to me. my mom was there, my aunt was there, few of my cousins were there. later, my dad came. i hugged him really tight and i then i hugged m mom really tight. i'm not sure why but i can remember that it is what i really want to do. to hug them really tight like i never did. actually, there were a lot of things happened but i don't know how to sort them out because of the inconsistency with the chronicles of the story. so i just share what i think is consistent with the storyline. then, while everyone was about to sleep and the night was getting darker, i decided to take a walk around the house. suddenly, from far away, i saw a bunch of tornadoes. actually, i was walking around just to see if there's a tornado because in the last scene, i was involved with a tornado. it really did make sense. after seeing the tornadoes, i ran to get my mother and to warn everyone else. by that time, my dad wasn't there. maybe he left already. at first, my mom didn't believe it but i showed her the tornadoes and we started to run. while running, i hugged my mom really tight that i never want to let go. maybe because i was so afraid about the tornado and afraid of losing her. and so we run run and run until we reach this one place. it's like a big wall and there were many people behind it hoping that the tornadoes wouldn't catch us. i suddenly saw this one guy and think that we were friends but i really have no idea who he is. he was running with her girlfriend. by that time, my mom was not in the scene anymore. so while we were talking, suddenly the tornado struck the wall and everyone was in terror. the guy in front me got his head blew off by that wall. and i was suddenly laying on the ground, paralyzed. and again, while thought i was dying, i whispered the dua shahadah again and again. and at the same time i heard a voice saying, "la jamaah! la jamaah! la jamaah!". i was puzzled and i tried to open my eyes, and i did. and i tried to move my fingers, and luckily i can still move them. the view was still the same bedroom of mine. and the clock showed 9.39am.

well, i guess there are some interesting things that i should ponder upon. there were few times that my dreams got insanely real. i just can't believe how real the dreams were. really interesting how God created this phenomenon. and about the last part of the dream, i too am not sure about it. the "la jamaah!" part was weird. but i'll figure it out later. maybe i wasn't too concern about doing good things in jamaah. usually i only do them alone. for example, when i pray. even so i got some friends in the same house, i rarely ask them to do the pray together. i don't know. that's what i can think off of now.

there you go some crazy dream of mine. interesting. the thrill i felt was real.

selamat berpuasa!

In Allah we have faith

Sunday, August 1, 2010

tempoh hari aku berbual dengan seorang tetamu datangnya dari germany. tiba2 topik perbualan merangkumi aspek agama. aku bertanya apakah kepercayaannya dan beliau memberitahu Kristian Katolik agamanya tapi beliau masih mencari-cari akan sesuatu yang lebih masuk akal. topik perbualan agama memang tiada penghujung. dia bertanya beberapa perihal tentang islam dan beliau memang mengambil tahu serba sedikit tentang agama2 lain. ketika mahu menjawab soalan2 yang dikemuka, terasa payahnya untuk menghurai kepada pemahamannya. satu, kerana risau maksudku tak tersampai kepadanya dan beliau akan mendapat maklumat yang salah daripadaku. keduanya, untuk menghuraikan dalam bahasa inggeris memang agak mencabar kerana kadang2 tak dapat "term" yang sesuai.

dalam pada itu, aku teringat akan Muhammad SAW junjungan kita. aku yang baru nak mentarbiyah seorang bukan islam pun dah rasa terbeban yang amat sangat. bagaimana manusia bernama Muhammad itu lalui segala liku dalam menyampaikan risalah Allah. amat hebat Subhanallah. aku hanya menyampaikan apa yang termampu dengan harapan agar islam ada bermain di mindanya dan agar Allah membuka mindanya.

kita tahu bahawa di penghujung dunia, islam akan kembali cemerlang di muka dunia. tetapi jika melihatkan keadaan umat islam hari kini, memang tak terbayang bagaimana islam mampu kembali dipandang tinggi oleh dunia. sebab utama adalah kerana penganut islam itu sendiri tidak memberikan gambaran yang sebenar tentang islam. oleh itu, manusia yang lainnya memang memandang islam serong melainkan mereka yang menyelidik sendiri tentang islam. itu bukan salah mereka kerana kita sendiri yang tidak menunjukkan sifat2 islam sebagai agama yang gemilang. ini sangat menyedihkan.

tak perlu lihat jauh. cuba lihat ibu pertiwi kita sendiri. gejala2 negatif semakin teruk terutamanya yang membabitkan anak2 muda kita. mereka secara amnya dididik melalui tiga badan. Jika di rumah, ibu bapa, jika di sekolah, guru2, dan jika luar daripada itu, adalah masyarakat amnya. kita lihat bagaimana ibu bapa mendidik anak mereka. berapa ramai yang mempunyai masa terluang untuk mendidik anak mereka? guru2 pula, berapa ramai yang niat mereka ikhlas untuk mendidik bersungguh-sungguh? masyarakat pula, lagi jauh sekali. buka dada akhbar sahaja, ahli politik tak habis dengan perkara2 remeh, bertikam sana sini.

sekarang pelajar tingkatan 2 sudah berani melakukan perkara2 lucah. dalam sehari, anak luar nikah oleh orang islam di malaysia puratanya 83 orang. itu orang islam! malang sungguh. kemudian pencegahannya tak nampak di mana, tetapi rawatannya memang hebat. dibinanya tempat khas untuk pembuangan bayi. mudah lah selepas ini, jika terlanjur mendapat anak tiada masalah, kerana ada tempat untuk meletak bayi. idea itu tidaklah seratus peratus tidak elok. cuma kita sibukkan merawat tanpa fokus yang lebih pada pencegahan.

faktor2 berlakunya perkara2 ini memang banyak. tak perlu untuk menuding jari. langkah yang terbaik adalah sama2 membaiki sistem kehidupan kita yang semakin tempang ini. kembali kepada islam. dan sementara itu, kita nantikan pemimpin yang hebat yang akan membela nasib islam.

saya kagum dengan pemimpin kita, Tun Mahathir. Memang ramai yang kagum dengannya kerana kemajuan yang hadir ketika eranya. itu tak dapat dinafikan tetapi beliau banyak juga dipandang enteng oleh segelintir masyarakat yang memandangnya sebagai tidak islamik.

buku yang bertajuk Mahathir's Selected Letters to World Leaders amat membuka mata saya. dalam itu, dilampirkan surat2 yang pernah ditulis kepada pemimpin2 dunia seperti Margaret Thatcher, Bill Clinton, Chirac, Bush, Blair, etc. adakah pemimpin di dunia yang lantang bersuara untuk membela nasib umat islam secara global? saya tak rasa ada. di dalam buku itu ada satu surat di mana Mahathir dengan penuh kekerdilan menulis kepada Clinton untuk melakukan sesuatu terhadap penyembelihan umat islam di Bosnia dan Clinton mengambil perhatian ke atas isu itu. dan kemudiannya ada surat yang ditulis untuk membela nasib umat islam di Palestin dan banyak lagi. saya kagum. kita perlukan pemimpin2 seperti ini yang tidak gentar menyuarakan ketidakpuashatian dan pada masa yang sama, diberikan perhatian oleh pemimpin2 dunia yang lain.

In Allah we have faith